Internalizing our disciplinary relationships without thinking often holds us back from experiencing our divinity. Adopting either a victim or authoritative identity seem like the only options. Attachment to either one neglects the true identity of the soul and our relationship with the most important part of us shrivels and withers. We long to regain that wondrous innocent feeling. Unfulfillment of this longing arouses anger, rage, hatred, bitterness, resentment and despair. No one would do this to themselves if they knew better. We need to feel the depths of this lost connection to the soul and see how greatly we suffer because of it.
The personality will often get hostile and belligerent when facing the soul. Its posture is ready to go to war but it is really only a program for self-sabotage. The personality is either stuck in the identity of the authority figure or the child-like victim. While in authority-figure mode, it reigns itself back from experiencing its full divinity because that is part of its role as the disciplinary party. It warns of possible impending danger. This is mostly a useful feature but it’s easy to overdo it. On the flip side the child-like victim mode is run by lack of worth. Either way, attachment to the personality is a recipe for quiet self-sabotage because it is rooted in fear.
As it approaches the soul the personality may flee with violence as seen in Mark 5:13. Going through the layers of the Tootsie pop too quickly may be disturbing. The vulnerability can become overwhelming so a safe environment is important. Self-realization often begins with heavy grieving. We cast off the personality’s shackles and align with the collective universal power at our center. Here is the reality of John 17:21: “…that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me.” The personality resists through the entire process because it is the adversary. It doesn’t have a choice but to bow (Romans 14:11 and Philippians 2:10).
Self-sabotage is not always violent. It is mostly unnoticeable and that is the way the enemy likes it. The enemy cannot survive in the light of consciousness so it avoids attracting attention at all costs. This character morphs into roles and disguises itself as an angel of light. It distracts us from awareness of our divinity because it feels there is something more important. We need to notice how the personality secretly sabotages our relationship with the true self and quit falling for its tricks. Once we become aware, we become awake. A supreme intelligent force takes control of our guidance system and eventually shuts down the self-sabotage program. We are made to feel measures of joy that extend forever.